Paranoia/The Journey/Home

I'm really paranoid.

 I'm not so used to being comfortable so things going right is something new for me.  I still feel like I'm floating in some sort of dream.  

They said I was going to hell.

But I feel like I'm finally home in a place where I might be wanted.  Is that so wrong?  Why does it feel like I'm not as good as I could be?  

They said I was crazy.

But it's starting to take shape and now maybe I'm not so crazy.  Maybe just maybe I've found other people who are crazy like me too?

I want to go home.

Double Speak

Maybe I should turn back.

What's the point, it's out there, you're in too deep.

But I've never done this before and I don't know what I'm doing or where I'm going.

So what, it's real, you're past thepoint  of no return. What's there to go back to anyways?

I could just give up, leave, no one would know I was gone.

Yeah right, the lies we tell, if you believe that you're full of shit.

I'll just call off tomorrow.  

No you won't you say you will but you know you won't.

Life is good, but why do I feel like something strange is going to happen?