Attachment

Attachment is something we all face in life.  Attraction can sometimes lead to attachment and attachment to attraction, and after awhile you can be stuck.  Last year I learned this in the most spectacular way, and after being attracted I wanted to be attached-permanently.

Now there's nothing wrong with this, if the feeling was mutual, and in this case it was, but not on the level I was on.  This was an attachment that became a bit too...dependent and needy.  Those are unhealthy.  I'm learning this now, but to learn this, I had to see it in reverse.

My attachment and attraction perverted the nature of the relationship and pushed it to end.  But now after some time apart, I realise that my attachment was too unhealthy.  I expected her to supplement me in a needy way-I needed her, and no one should ever be needed in that way.  Its just so unhealthy and disgusting.

I learned this today in the strangest way.  There's someone I bonded with, felt attachment and attraction to, and then it went overboard.  Things shifted and now I'm feeling smothered.  I know the lesson.